Life is filled with ups and downs. Something happens and then something else, and things go on. But then there are so many times that you desperately want time to freeze. Some moments in your life are so beautiful that you want to live in those moments forever. You do not want to let the magic spell be over, you refuse to come out of the fantasy world, and you do not want anything to end the magical experience, anything at all.
Amidst all these glamorized ideas of those perfect instants that you want to live in forever, you are forced to wake up. You have to accept that reality is more than a dream after all. You have to, because life has its own ways of making sure that you do, by hook or by crook.
And then as if waking up wasn’t enough to trouble you, another realization strikes. You realize that your entire life is going to be filled up with uncertainties. Everything that is happening to you right now might end straight away and your most treasured experience might just be lost somewhere in your everyday life. Without any prior notice, without any time for packing up, without any preparation, you are expected not only to accept what is happening with you, but also to make peace with it.
Am I the only one who feels that I am too feeble to handle all this? And if not so, does each one of us go through this? In either case, the confrontation is not very comforting. This helplessness is supposedly a part of the human existence. It is probably a way in which nature proves its superiority over us. But then if we accept this, what does our role boil down to? Are we nothing more but puppets in the hands of nature?
These confusions had been haunting me terribly for the past few days. The optimist that I call myself was fading down. I had no answers until this morning. They are true when they say that a new dawn brings in the energy to look at things a new. The bright sunshine definitely does give you a bright new outlook on everything that surrounds you. In fact, what I realized was so satisfying that I had no grudges anymore.
The new insight was that instead of focusing on what is not in my control, I need to focus on what I can do. Nature surely can decide what happens to me. But it is me and me alone who decides the way I react to whats happening. And when I decide to stay satisfied with what is happening around me, no situation, however uncertain it might seem, can affect my calm.
What I am saying above might seem quite controversial to many reading this. After all, wasn’t the point that I do not want to remain helpless anymore?
Well, I’m not claiming to become that detached monk who does not get affected by things going around. What I am saying is that if I decide not to give away my satisfaction, I, in a way prove to life that I deserve good things to happen to me. I attract all positivity around. And if I continue to earnestly work hard on being happy and do justice to it, I just might be blessed with my core requirement (A permanent smile and an ever-lasting excellent mood).
I do not claim to get all that I want through this, but the reward is tempting enough for me to keep working on the process. After all, the hope that things will eventually work out in my favor is too strong for me to believe anything otherwise. All I will then need is an eye to notice the souvenir, when I am secretly gifted with whats best for me.
This is the only way, I have figured out, of letting that feeling of magic be around even after I wake up. Perhaps the only way to believe that each of my actions are a part of an important process, and perhaps the only motivation to be happy even when everything around forces me hard on not flaunting that smile.
P.S. No one can take away the beauty that I have already lived in…. My memories will remain my treasures… Forever! And probably the greed for more such moments will continue to encourage me to be happy all my life, thereby making the journey all worthwhile. My existence, worthwhile.
That’s about me. You can go ahead and find out million other ways to identify your being in this big-big world. A million other ways, to gain control. In all cases, I hope you keep smiling ! 🙂