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Learning – The most captivating process !

Published July 25, 2012 by Virgo293

As time raced ahead, with the third semester in my B.M.M course, I almost started to believe that this project in my college, which was basically making a short film, will be a parameter to prove myself. I am not supposed to technically make the film, but write it, but I boldly use this opportunity to say, I’m creating a film, even if it is just in my head. In fact, my heart and soul went into creating, what I believed would be a master piece. Fortunately or unfortunately, that did not happen. The script is not yet done. It’s  not even close to done.

But I think , one lesson in the course has been learned.

My first idea was rejected on the spot, with reasons so valid that even I render the plot immature now. The second idea or a story if you want to call it, seemed mechanical to me, something that I had created just to justify the rules, and something that did not have a soul of its own. The third Idea is something I have been working on, since the past three weeks, and more importantly, without any fruitful results, as of now.

Had I been the person I was a few weeks ago, I would have cried to bits, comforted myself with forced sleep, and quit the project.  What then is keeping me on toes?

Well there’s a secret that I discovered.

I explored that the entire design of the course, never was to lead us into believing that we are film makers. We are not and  never were expected to prove that we were excellent screen writers. The entire program has been weaved around the journey rather than the destination. The process has been made like this, for us to realize, that we are capable of failing. And thus gift ourselves with the liberty to fail.

I have  understood the fact, that this project was not meant to be my life, but rather the first step towards a destination that I have chosen for myself.  Hence I cannot keep bothering myself by crying about something that I couldn’t achieve at the first go. If I need to get a good script, I need to accept that the previous one wasn’t good enough. And more importantly, I need to realize, that this is perfectly normal since I am no genius.

Luckily, with umpteen explanations that have gone into this, with all my near and dear ones involved, I am no longer afraid of failing.

The first lesson, the lesson of wisdom, has been learnt. The undiscovered area of my brain, which can recognize errors, has now become functional. But the most amazing part of it all is, I beg to state in extreme arrogance, that the embarrassment of  making mistakes has now become a proof of my efforts. And trust me there is no feeling in the world comparable with the satisfaction of this level.

It is the passion, that this satisfaction instills in me, which is keeping me on my toes

Isn’t learning, then, the most captivating process a person can ever go through?

Well let me talk of myself, it truly is, one of the most beautiful things that I have ever gone through. And hence it deserves to be written about. 🙂

Maya

Published July 10, 2012 by Virgo293

This is a story about a girl who proves to herself and her husband; if not to the world ; that love continues to beautify lives even when a loved one is no longer around to express it. Though it is true that such secrets take their own sweet time to be discovered.

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She saw him in college for the first time; that was the purest feeling she ever went through. They were in the same class, were acquaintances, but Aditya was very passive towards her.  As days passed she fell madly in love with him. College ended but her feelings for him were as fresh as ever. It was finally time for her to go back to where she had come from, the states.

It was few days before her departure that Aditya came to know that Maya was from USA. He had applied for an US visa but had been rejected. He wanted to go there to carry forward his family business; and if he didn’t, his father would get another chance to bully him about his incapability. At any cost he couldn’t let his family know that the visa has been rejected. His ‘ego’ wouldn’t allow this.

The only way; he thought of; to get out of this, was marrying Maya and going to US with her. The plan was to get divorced after a year; after which she could be free of the legal formalities. He proposed this idea to Maya with such sheer indifference that at first she couldn’t reply. “It will hardly make a difference to your life”, he had said. He had no clue that he was shattering a person inside out. However, Maya was in love; all that was visible to her was that Aditya needed her and she couldn’t say no. Perhaps the mere thought of being with him, even in a false marriage was far more tempting than she could resist.

They got married and left for Los Angles. A few days went into settling with each other.  His apathy was a little difficult to digest in the beginning, but eventually she got used to it. They both got busy in their lives and things went on.

One Day, Maya’s boss (a guy) came to drop her off at her place. Aditya saw them, exchanging greetings and Maya getting off the car. He quoted about it to Maya in his native sarcasm. Maya ignored it.

Another time a neighbour walked into the door; and wanted to talk to Maya. Aditya was about to tell him to get lost when Maya walked in. Both of them interacted in a friendly way which added to Aditya’s ferocity. However, after the neighbour left Maya noticed a level of discomfort and tried to say something but she was silenced by his ‘not so polite’ expressions. 

Actually this was the case most of the time. Whenever she tried to talk to him about anything concerning his own self; he fled away. Be it about his past; his future or the most important thing in his life, music. Silence was the only answer she ever received. But she had decided, she was going to get past this barrier to help him live his passion. And pretty obviously she didn’t mind any hard work that went into it; as long as it was for his happiness.

She was almost there; she had succeeded in taping him and getting the music directors consent for his audio album. Considering Aditya’s talent and her contacts; it wasn’t a hard thing to do.

T he most difficult part was still left. Convincing Aditya. All the way back from the studio; she kept on rehearsing lines that she would use. She knew he would have his defences on like he had had many times before, but she had made up her mind to try. Try her very best.

However she met with an accident on the way. She was taken to the Hospital immediately and Aditya was called. She was in the ICU when Aditya reached there. He was just handed over with Maya’s belongings and a diary.

He started reading it. It described the extent of her feelings for him. The small light inside him had awakened. The faint sentiments that he had developed for her in the course of time, grew louder and clearer. Finally, he accepted that he loved her.

For the first time in years he prayed. He desperately began praying for her life. Rather; for his Life.

Unfortunately; Maya couldn’t make it.

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 Aditya was reborn after this; he understood that life was extremely short for anything to be procrastinated. He started living for his passion. But inside he knew; he had started living for Maya.

He became very successful. His first super hit Album was named ‘Maya.’

 

 

 

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